30 Day Self Harm Challenge: Day 14

Is there anyone you consider to be an inspiration in your recovery?

No single person, rather, my family, friends, boyfriend, myself, my teammates, my athletes...etc.

30 Day Self Harm Challenge: Day 13

What is the biggest realization about self harm you've had?

Harming yourself is counterproductive to helping yourself.  there's so many other things you can do to get that release that you need.  It's a temporary solution to a problem, and what good does it do besides leave scars?

30 Day Self Harm Challenge: Day 12

Where do you keep your 'tools'?

I don't really keep anything.  I used to have pocket knives but those were taken away by my friends a long long time ago.  I used to just find something sharp and go with it.  Usually sharp scissors or something like that.  Nothing that I would have kept hidden away.

30 Day Self Harm Challenge: Day 11

Strangest place that you've ever injured yourself?

I don't think anywhere strange really.  Mostly either my bathroom or bedroom I guess.

30 Day Self Harm Challenge: Day 10

How do you feel about your scars?

Not proud.  I don't pay too much attention to them anymore really.  Sometimes I feel self conscious about them, like if I'm out in a bikini or whatnot I wonder if people stare at them.  At other times I just forget they're there.  They're just a part of me now.

30 Day Self Harm Challenge: Day 9

Have you ever taken pictures of your wounds?  Discuss.

The only time I've ever taken a picture of my wounds is after I got my Otep lyrics tattoo.  I've never taken pics after I've cut.  I don't need to see it or share that with people.  I think taking pictures of your cuts and especially putting them on social media is asking for attention in a negative way.  I've always kept mine a private matter.  I'm not proud of them nor do I want to 'show them off.'

30 Day Self Harm Challenge: Day 8

What is the most supportive thing anyone has ever said to you about self harm?

There's so many things to even directly quote...

I think the most profound thing I heard was from my parents when I was in the hospital.  They both said I could never disappoint them, that they'll always worry about me and love me no matter what, and that everyone needs a little help sometimes.  They said I was intelligent for actually asking for help when I went to the hospital.  It made me feel good that they weren't judging and that they were behind me.

There's also so many things my friends and family have said to me and continue to say to me.  Just their support and love in general Ella me every day.