30 Day Self Harm Challenge: Day 25

soooo i forgot to finish...ehhem

Do you know any statistics about self harm?

Nothing specific, but I know it's more prominent than we usually think.  I know that suicide rates are insanely high.  And I know that one day I want be a help to reverse that.

30 Day Self Harm Challenge: Day 24

What are some of your main triggers?  why?

Being overwhelmed or stressed is a huge trigger.  Sometimes I get lost in everything I have to think about or do, and it drives me crazy.  Although, things have been much better recently as I am able to control and manage things a lot better.

Also, looking at self harm pictures and whatnot.

30 Day Self Harm Challenge: Day 23

What is your favorite inspirational quote?

'You're perfectly flawed.' -Otep

30 Day Self Harm Challenge: Day 22

Where do you feel the most calm?

There's a few places I suppose.  My room of course would be on the top of my list.  Steve's room would be another one of my calm places where I can just relax.  The shower after a long derby practice, my living room when I'm home alone at night and able to just listen to music and relax, and probably any place that I can watch the sun setting.

30 Day Self Harm Challenge: Day 21

Have you tried to stop in the past?  What have you done differently this time?

Yes I have tried to stop in the past.  Started seeing a psychiatrist and got on medication.  It worked for a while and I got too comfortable and took myself off my medications.  Took a few months for everything to fall apart and I ended up in the hospital for 5 days.  Realized I needed to be on medication and that's okay, Realized how many people care for me, changed some stuff in my own life, and here I am.  I have slipped up once since then, but am doing 100% better than ever.  This time around I am more open and use my resources better and more carefully.

30 Day Self Harm Challenge: Day 20

What is the most vivid memory you have of self harm?

I usually can remember what song I was listening to at the time for some reason.

One specific vivid memory is thinking I had to get stitches.  Instead I went to a coworkers home so he could steri-strip and cover them up.  It was pretty horrifying.

30 Day Self Harm Challenge: Day 19

List 5 reasons that recovery is worth it.

No more hiding cuts.
No new scars.
I can help others recover.
I can be proud of myself for surviving and overcoming.
I don't have to feel so low that I'd want to hurt myself.