What part of self harm do you dislike the most?
I hated the way Id feel before I'd cut; the loneliness and despair and hopelessness. I'd just listen to a sad song on repeat and cry and cry until I hurt myself.
I hated bleeding and having to clean up my own blood. I'd have to wait for it to stop before I could go anywhere.
I hated the feeling afterwards; the amount of pain I felt physically. I couldn't wear pants without feeling them rubbing my cuts and causing more pain. I'd be exhausted from the amount of adrenalin I used up while cutting.
I hate the stupid scars I still have; I hate when people see them or ask about them.
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