2011...
Definitely a year of growth and change for me. I can't say I'm sad to see it go, and I can say with all honesty this was the roughest year of my life thus far. It started off poorly, and ended poorly as well. I can't say I remember everything that has happened (my memory blows), but I remember most. I want to throw some of these random memories out there so I can leave them behind and move on.
We rang in the New Year last year at Boo's cousin's house. We drank our asses off and had a wonderful night. It was my second year celebrating the New Year with my best friend....this year will be the 3rd, and definitely not the last. I've written about her a few times and I really dont need to repeat myself, but our relationship has really grown this year. We spent a few months apart, but we found each other again, and we will, from now on, be inseparable. My best friend, my sister, was diagnosed with brain cancer this year, but in the years to follow, we're gonna beat that. We're a united front and nothing can stop us.
I added a few scars to my body, shed some pounds due to anorexia, and lost a part of myself. I started therapy this year in March. It's a mixed bag I suppose...on one hand I have a therapist that I can vent to and that can give me advice and stimulate my brain. On the other hand, I have to wake up and take a pill every morning to control my mood. I will continue on with therapy and whatnot, and see where it takes me in life.
I had a couple terrible break ups this year. I keep in touch with the guys that had a pretty positive effect on my life. There are a few that I will never speak to again, and that I regret being with, but it's all part of the learning process I suppose. I feel like I lost a part of myself this summer as I was pretty much using my single relationship status in the wrong way. I've learned to be more picky and take my time if I do decide to date again. As a friend told me last night, "all we have is time." I'm honestly not sure that I will put my heart out there again, and I have lost a TON of hope and trust as a result of some of these break ups. Who knows, maybe one day someone will be able to sweep me off my feet again...
I lost my Great Aunt Mary and Great Uncle Will this year, one within a month of the other. They lived a long and happy life together, and it was clear that one could not live without the other simply because they were literally eachother's everything. This did give me hope that love can in fact last a life time. They were together their whole lives, and will continue to be together in the afterlife. Their deaths enabled me to finally visit my Grampa Maher's grave site. My aunt and uncle were buried within feet of my grampa...which we were unaware of...So it was actually a very touching experience.
The positives of 2011 that I will not be leaving in the past:
The new friends I've made
Friendships that have become stronger
The sweet concerts I went to
Family that I have become closer to
My crazy hair styles and colors- special shoutout to my little cousin for this one <3
My new tattoos and piercings
My amazing job: my switch to a new PT clinic, and the opportunity to work with people who challenge my knowledge and help me learn how to become better at what I do. My VASJ kids, who mean the absolute world to me.
My opportunity to continue my education in the graduate program at CSU.
It always helps to end with the positive...makes me think that maybe 2011 wasnt THAT awful.
A new year is about to start, which means I am putting an end to this chapter and starting a new one. Chapter 24 in my life, Chapter 2012... Have a happy and safe New Year everyone! Leave the past in the past, and celebrate...there is no greater time than right now, and tomorrow never exists.
So here's to you 2011. Cheers.
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