Ever listen to a song that makes you think, "hey, this is totally about me?" Well this is definitely MY song. The link is above, lyrics are included. This whole process would make more sense if you could take the 4 minutes to watch/listen.
I'll wait.....hmhmhmhmhm (thats me humming).
OKAY so you've got the jist of what this song is all about. Let's break it down shall we?
He knows and understands the baggage with which she comes. He knows she's not eating and is there to tell her she's beautiful- that she lost the weight she wanted to lose. The pills she has to take, he reassures her that they will always be there to keep her stable. And yet, through this shit, he'd go anywhere and do anything for her. He's caving in to her. She cuts herself and tries to hide it from him, but she cant, and he finds out -you bled til you spoke up. He says this aint pretty dear, but there he is, still standing by her. He'll be there to protect her and help fight away her demons - we'll scream at night to make them go away. WE WILL- aka TOGETHER they will work through it. He stands for her. He is her support.
Some people, like me, we have these demons that we were handed, and we need that support. We need that extra helping hand. We need to be reminded that we are not in this fight alone, but are fighting for life hand in hand with someone who loves us. Not everyone can stand on their own at all times, and that's okay.
I have had a rough day starting with when I woke up- more dreams. Woke up feeling semi empty, but at the same time, ready to take on the day. I've made it through, but barely. No suicidal thoughts, no bodily harm, just painful heartache that wont go away. I feel like a part of my heart is missing. I think it'll always be missing. I can physically feel that hole in my heart.
I dont wanna spend the night alone, so I have, once again, called on my best friend to babysit. I need someone to cry with, someone to hold my hand tonight, and she's been the one to give that to me. It's a little embarrassing to call your friend up and say, "hey listen, its not gonna be a good night for me, can i please lean on you?" But her and I have been friends since the 1st grade, and she knows me like the back of her hand. Everyone has a friend or two like that...lean on them when you need them. It'll help a lot. Ask for help. It's okay to do. Dont be superman, dont be too proud. Fight it hand in hand with someone who cares. Two voices screaming at once are louder than one lonely voice. (Yeah Im John Madden).
I got a text from her saying "VERONICA CORNINGSTONE AND I HAD SEX, AND WE ARE IN LOVE!"....wait that is totally the wrong text, but it is from her...
Here's the one I was looking for:
"Anytime youre not feeling good just call me. No matter what time it is or where I'm at or where you're at, it doesnt matter, okay? You're gonna be my maid of honor at my wedding and my baby's god mother and favorite aunt and you're gonna be with me from the day I need a walker to the day I'm on my death bed. We've gone through everything together so far and that's how I want it to stay."
Yes, be jealous, my best friend is totally the most amazing person in the world. But I'm willing to bet you've got one just like her. Maybe she doesnt have your name tattood on her stomach, and maybe you both dont have matching tattoos (yeah that would be us), but everyone has a friend like her that will stand up and fight with you.
At least think about who it is in your life that has been that person for you. Maybe give them a call or shoot them a text after reading this. Talk about heavy stuff. Laugh and cry together. Tell them you'll always be there for them and are always willing to fight with and for them.
Now I gotta get my ass to her house before she beats me up.
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